Monday, October 1, 2012

Surrender

Sometimes, I catch myself putting a spin on things, acting as if it's all peachy. I realize now I did that yesterday, talking about my job. The truth? It changes every moment, and today I'm clenched because the control freak in me is having to surrender as usual to the litany of undecided and unresolved and unknown. Nothing sticks. It's all in flux every moment. Like life itself, I suppose. Which means yesterday was good because I deluded myself. Or perhaps I just managed to stay in the moment. Today, however, reality is kicking my ass. Can I go back to bed now? I'm thinking some place that looks like this.

This bedroom is in one of the houses on Strawberry Hill, a retreat in Jamaica's Blue Mountains. It might be the most beautiful place on earth. 

9 comments:

  1. Were you shadowing me at MY job? Cuz, you know, it sounds JUST like that. Except that as always, you're more articulate and precise. And I have missed reading you. I know I don't say it (or SHOW UP to say it) often enough, but thank you, thank you - for thinking, for writing, for sharing. You're a blessing to me as reader, writer and fundamental inspiration.

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  2. Oh darn, and I thought things were going. I know the feeling though.

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  3. Yes. I want to stay in bed there tomorrow.
    love,
    Rebecca

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  4. I want to sleep in that exact bed at this exact minute. Dang.

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  5. What is real and what is delusion? Is it ALL our outlook? I don't know. I just know that like you what one day looks like gold and goodness to me can look like brass and bad the next.
    Bed, however, almost always looks good doesn't it? Especially that one.

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  6. This place looks magical. Right where I want to be.
    There are times I write things and in the moment it feels so true because it is and then the next day I wonder where that came from... We sure change a lot and quickly, don't we?

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  7. Sometimes a return to bed is the only reasonably option.

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  8. Thank you for my new favorite if-only destination. The option to change our minds remains one of my favorite things about being human. And it IS all in flux, or in something for which we have no word. xo

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  9. Wish I could crawl into that bed right now.

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