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Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Tilt and Swirl


Our son came home from the lake in the woods just for the day to meet up with friends from college, and now he is gone again, and I am sad from missing him. I wrote a whole other post which I have now taken down, because after I wrote it I went over to Ezra Caldwell's blog Teaching Cancer to Cry, and after reading there my concerns just seemed so puny in the face of Ezra's grace, and so I will just say I miss my boy, I wish I could make everything perfect all the time for him, and for his sister too, and I am sad tonight, and in time the sadness will pass.



8 comments:

  1. Aw. Your sadness is valid. And your home looks so cozy. :)

    Hugs to you tonight, my dear friend.

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  2. My friend Sue used to say, "I've got the saddies." And it didn't sound stupid coming from her mouth. It was just a way of saying that she was sad but it wasn't the worst kind of sad so maybe you have the saddies.
    (And anyway, I've always said that someone else's cancer will not cure my broken leg which may be a bit selfish but it's true.)

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  3. Oh, I get it. You know I do.

    And that Ezra Caldwell is a luminous light in the world -- I imagine that when he's gone, he'll keep burning through us, too.

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  4. I read your previous entry before you removed it. I was moved by how strongly you connect to those you love. To me, it is very different than the sadness in the world around us. It is beautiful. It is one of the things I most admire about you. I don't mean I want you to be sad of course, I mean the depth of feeling. I believe it will come back to you 10-fold. Sweet Jo

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  5. Hugs from afar...to you and them.

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  6. Sorry you're going through a sad spell. Your concerns are your concerns, and they're not puny to you. Don't ever feel like it's inappropriate for you to express them here, or that they don't measure up to the concerns of others! (That's my two cents.)

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  7. Oh I know how hard and lonely it can be when your child will not open up to you. But he came home and if it was only to rest and recover from whatever - you may possibly never find out - at least he came. Back home. That is very precious.

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  8. I never understand the rhyme or reason to my sad spells. They sneak up on me when I'm least expecting them. Hope yours was fleeting, and yes, after visiting Ezra's blog last week I am trying to keep things in perspective. Ezra's eyes speak volumes, don't they? I hope he is not in pain, and I hope I can live with half the grace he manages.
    xo

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