Saturday, January 4, 2014

Koan

The world will show you only what you believe is there. It is an inescapable koan. I am at the bottom of a vast blue lake looking up through a pane of thick glass. There is light and air beyond and people laughing but I can't get past the sorrow and the sense of loss. My body is in the room with everyone. I look and sound normal enough. But inside, the lake, and the glass between.


11 comments:

  1. I know, Angella, If it makes you feel any better, I know.

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  2. I know this exactly. I have been calling it the glass cage. Oh, it is a horrible feeling. And when we are stuck inside of it, our brains (our poor, misguided brains) are free to come up with whatever nonsense they can. I wish I could reach through all the glass and hold your hand. For some reason, I always have that image when I think of you. Holding your hand for our mutual comfort. Perhaps it is symbolic of the connection I feel with you. We are too much alike.
    Oh how I wish I had some magic to help you through this time. Just know I am sending you my love, most sincerely.

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  3. look at yourself in the mirror and say "I love you."

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  4. Holding your hand and wanting you to know how grateful I am that there is a you. I know it doesn't make it better but it's true.

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  5. I know, and I love you, sweet friend.

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  6. your words are the way to the surface. trust in that, angella.

    i so wish you lived nearby. i have found renewed sustenance from a wonderful writing group up here...pure serendipity. and well beyond the structure, sustenance, it's about being with one's own kind. these smart, crazy people remind me of who i am.

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  7. tearful came home with a magical pill. can it be that easy and we just don't see it/know it?
    i love this post/koan.
    love,
    yo

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  8. Oh honey. You have said it so perfectly. I have been there, too. I love you much. Breathe in love.

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  9. Angella, we are all here with you, and we've all been in that lake. (Well, I certainly have, anyway.) I've been feeling a bit the same at my father's, or maybe different, since I WANT to be left alone amid all the superficial interaction. I don't know. Anyway, hugs to you. :)

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