I was walking around taking pictures of how the sun came into my house the other day, and I snapped this one of our kitchen windowsill, which is growing quite crowded. My son-in-law gave me that orange pitcher to hold flowers, because when he brought me blooms I could never find a vase. My mother gifted me that mortar and pestle made of Jamaican lignum vitae, and the gracious-like-her coasters that sit under it. My niece Dani gave me the plant for my last birthday, assuring me that it was resilient and needed hardly any care. And to hold the sorrel he made last Christmas, my husband picked up those capped bottles that harness the light just so. I woke up yesterday with a red rash on my cheeks, and at first couldn't figure out what I'd done to bring it on. Then I remembered I'd swiped a clear liquid over my disappearing eyebrows the day before, morning and evening as instructed, to coax them to grow. It was the only thing that could have accounted for the red flush seemingly out of nowhere. I texted my daughter to tell her about it. Send me a picture, she said, so I turned to the window and smized. The red flush is there, but I'm intrigued that it looks like I applied blush to my cheeks, and this morning, I am still wearing it, despite abandoning the clear liquid promise of thicker eyebrow and vigorously scrubbing my skin. Also, yikes, my gray sure has grown in. Even so, that window, too, gives good light.In the face of everything going on, including the very troubling news of boy engineers hacking into the government's Treasury Department, giving them control of social security payments, tax refunds, medicaid payments, federal salaries, program grants, and more, I thought I would share this gorgeous offering from Wendell Berry. I'm fairly sure I've posted it before, and that many of you already know this poem, but every line is so perfect for these times, so I'm sharing it again. I want to be able to find it easily when I need to be reminded there is peace all around us, if we remember to look.
THE PEACE OF WILD THINGS
By Wendell Berry
When despair for the world grows in me
When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,
in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
You and your grey hair and eyebrows look good! Now I'll be anxiously watching to see if our SS checks come in this month. Unfortunately no wood drakes nearby to calm me down.
ReplyDeleteKristin, hard to be calm in the tsunami we're in, but let try and visualize resting by still waters, see if that changes the internal weather. We'll get through this somehow. Glad you're here.
DeleteAt first I thought your window was actually a lovely picture leaning on the windowsill. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the poem. I'm so full of worries right now that it is difficult to lift myself out of the grayness.
Ellen, we all share your worries, and they seem to grow by the day. I think we have no choice but to disassociate sometimes. We can't possibly keep up with it all. My biggest worry, honestly, is that I seem to be just sitting my house, doing nothing to help change things, because I have absolutely no idea what to do. Writing to Congresspeople feels futile right now. I suppose we simply take the next breath, and do the next indicated thing.
DeleteA lotta hell's gonna break loose from this...though it isn't being broadcast and most don't understand the implications of it...Nothing here to calm me either at the moment. You look gorgeous!
ReplyDeletee, thank you for the kind eyes. Hang in there, my friend. We will need sturdy hearts for what's ahead. xo
DeleteWhat Berry describes is exactly what Glen does intuitively. He takes long days on the river where there is nothing but the birds and the trees, sky, water, and fish. He comes home a changed man with perspective on the things that have been troubling him and appreciation for the things he loves.
ReplyDeleteYour kitchen windowsill is very pretty but not as pretty as you.
Mary, your husband is a wise man. We all can learn from him. As for us noisy brained women, let's hold hands shall we? Love.
DeleteThank you for the reminder. I love your window sill! I planted a lignum vitae in my yard when we first moved into this house, its growth is slow but steady. I heard the wood is so strong and sturdy, it was once used to fashion anchors. Our souls will need to be as strong to survive these next four years.
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Barbara
Barbara, you're so right, our souls will need to be as strong as lignum vitae, and able to withstand and anchor us in the flood. xo backatcha
DeleteBeautiful colors and wonderful light in a winter window...healing powers.
ReplyDeleteMarcia, I feel so lucky to have this view, and all this light, it is indeed healing. Such a peaceful outlook in a teeming city. Thank you, friend, for being here.
DeleteI love that poem. I do fear for the future and try to remain hopeful, despite my fear. It's just hard.
ReplyDeleteI love your windowsill. I have a cat who would come along and knock each object off the sill:)
Pixie, I loved reading that Canadians are reading labels in supermarkets and refusing to cave to the tariffs threat!
DeleteI didn't know what sorrel was but I looked it up and the bottles make sense now.
ReplyDeleteP, sorrel is a drink that many Caribbean people make at Christmas. In Jamaica, each maker's sorrel is distinctly flavored. I happen to like the one my husband makes best of all!
DeleteHow I love - and appreciate - that poem today, my friend. Thank you. The changes in the world, caused by a small group of hateful and entitled people, are already gravely concerning, and I fear it will get worse before it gets better. Let us each try to keep centered as the poet suggests, to keep us strong for the fight.
ReplyDeleteI am losing my eyebrows and their colour, too. I've read it's just age, but I feel your pain. And my hair has swaths of grey, not unlike a skunk's stripes :) I refuse to change my appearance with chemicals as long as it's only expected of women. (And because I would, like you, have skin reactions.) Stay safe and know you and your family are in my thoughts.
Jenny, thank you for the solidarity. I love knowing that you are here in this place with me, my birthday twin. Hugs.
DeleteYour skin is flawless despite the red 'blush'. And the gray becomes you, gives testament to all you have survived. I know I've commented somewhere before, maybe here, that the Japanese whose very culture is infused with art and nature recommend spending time in nature to dispel depression and dismay.
ReplyDeleteellen, the flawless skin? It's just good light, being kind to reality. My husband loves the gray, but some days, i look at it and know that soon, I will slather chemical color on it again, and continue the useless cycle. And the art you make is itself a salvation for those of us lucky enough to view it.
DeleteI love that poem so much -- and yes, it always "works" -- and we need a reminder all the time, right?
ReplyDeleteElizabeth, it might have been you who first introduced me to that poem! xo
DeleteThe lady who used to cut my hair would tell me that the grey is nature's way of softening your hair color against your face. Nice thought. I was hoping I'd go totally grey, but apparently the streak across the top of my head is all I'm going to get. Your window really does look like a painting. Wonderful view.
ReplyDeleteAllison, I love the that thought about the gray softening our faces. Sadly, on me, when the gray comes in I just look more drawn. Now a head of full white, that I think I would love.
DeleteGrateful for poets. Yours reminds me of another poem. I once told my daughter that I read a poem in English class in grade 11 and it turned my mind like an hourglass. Years later she engraved it on wood for me and it hangs above my writing desk. It too provides perspective.
ReplyDeleteOn the 24th of May
by D.G. Jones
Six cows
lie
or kneel
in the green grass
like badly built tents.
They flap
an ear
or tail
to keep off the flies.
They are indeed
obsolete structures.
The look out
from unnecessarily
large eyes
at the bright
automobiles
driving northward
and are profoundly
unmoved.
db, what a precious and thoughtful gift your daughter gave you. You obviously imparted good and loving qualities in your girl.
DeleteAlways love reading that poem. You look wonderful!
ReplyDeleteEverybody in my husband's family turns grey early in life, but as a reward, the men don't go bald. My husband was almost completely grey by his mid 30s and my daughter tried for ten years to catch up with dying her hair. She has since given up, now in her early 40s, she has the. most beautiful shiny soft grey hair you can imagine.
Sabine, one day I will follow your daughter's lead, but not yet. My husband, bald since he was 30, explained to me that every hair that turns white on a head is there to stay.
DeleteYou are a wonderful writer. I enjoy reading your blog!
ReplyDeleteAnonymous, thank you for this kind comment, and for being here. I'd love to know your name next time you comment. I'm glad you've opted to stay around our little fire.
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