Summer loop

I'm moody as hell, old mental tapes playing on a loop, but at least I'm having the good sense so far not to act on them as if they are truth. I have a medical procedure tomorrow, nothing serious, but anything involving hospitals unsettles me. My nerves are sort of jangled. We've had house guests all week, and they left this morning. My daughter also left to return to school, and her research job, and there's a big yawning space when she goes. But my son and my niece are here, and of course that dear sweet man, so I'm good, really. My girl will be back and gone again, and back again and gone again all in the next month, so I'd better pace myself.

Had a wacky and wonderful time with my daughter and niece at the Mexican place in the neighborhood yesterday. We had a Happy Hour mango margarita each, along with our tacos and deviled eggs and jalapeño cornbread and baked beans, and we were silly and giddy together. My niece could not get over the fact that she could now consume cocktails in public with her cousin, this was her baby cousin after all, how could she possibly be old enough? How could she be indeed?