Some fears should never be spoken, are not worthy of being powered by the vibration of sound. But how do we exorcise those fears, so that they cease to live inside us, making knees weak, breath ragged? They have such power, these figments of the mind, these imaginings that will hopefully never come to pass, and even if they did, what would I do then but keep on? All this to say I am a mess of unspoken fears this afternoon, and saying that here is my attempt to set them aside, to remind myself that the things I fear have not destroyed me, though I'm definitely a bit dinged. As I spiral in inner space, here are two photos of American Ballet Theater's Misty Copeland, goddess of the dance, because in my next life, I'm going to have that tensile muscle and grace, that mastery over the very air.
I know. Oh, to have magical powers to help you. Breathe, breathe, breathe.
ReplyDeleteI am wishing you peace and calm, Rosemarie!
ReplyDeleteImagination may save us all, sometimes it is all we have on hand.
ReplyDeleteGood hard questions. Setting aside is a tool I have found useful, too, along with admitting to people I trust that I don't want fear to get the best of me. Sending love.
ReplyDeleteBalance fear with love. Wrap yourself in the arms of what you have accomplished, have weathered and risen, have breathed deeply and stood strong, and remember all the love that surrounds you in this very moment. You have it all, my friend, all. Take care there.
ReplyDelete"I've lived through some terrible things in my life, some of which actually happened." Mark Twain.
ReplyDeleteI'm the same way. I think a lot of us are.
As for Misty, you wouldn't want her feet. Ballet is brutal on the feet. I would love to have that strength and grace though.
my mother used to say 'What is the worst that could happen? Identify that and work back from it.' It even works to do that. Somtimes. Somtimes there is just too much. Or imagination fails.
ReplyDeleteMy go-to is Austen's Persuasion. And 2:00 am hot chocolate.
Does it help to write it down? That is my other go-to.
Misty is poetry in motion. May you find a place in your heart/mind where you feel as wonderful as she looks graceful.
ReplyDeletewe do have control over our minds as much as we think our minds control us. when those fears and fearful thoughts clamber for attention, push them away and purposely think of things that make you feel good, happy, and brave. and imagine yourself on point and graceful.
ReplyDeleteYes, the same fears seem to keep me going round and round the hamster wheel. I chase them away some days, I manage that at least.
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