Thursday, December 4, 2014

Chasing normalcy

I'm feeling tired, cold and achy. All I really want to do today is climb back under the covers. I have work to do but the writing's not flowing. I feel uninspired. And yet, apart from my worry about my mother, nothing is actually wrong for me personally in this moment. So why this overwhelming urge to hide out in bed?

In other news, I'm in a choral group that's performing the first of three winter concerts this Saturday. I enjoy our Monday night choir rehearsals and the fact that I've had the pleasure of singing Christmas and Hanukkah music throughout the fall. The selections are beautiful four-part harmonies, although in one song I'm flat out faking some of the high notes. The choir director thinks I'm a second soprano but I'm going to see if I can switch to alto in the spring. Better not to keep faking!

My son is in the living room laughing at something on TV. This makes me smile. He doesn't work at the sports club on Thursdays and Saturdays but he still coaches track in the afternoons. He works seven days a week, this boy. I love to hear him laughing.

In two weeks, I'm flying to San Francisco to start a new project. I'll have to return there a few times in the early part of next year to conduct some interviews. My daughter is making this first trip with me. She plans to create her own adventures on the Friday when I'm working, then we're staying on an extra day so we can explore the city together. Now there's something to look forward to! I've never been to the Bay Area before though one of my favorite cousins and her wife live there. They plan to take us out on the town, and my daughter is also so much fun to travel with. Okay, now I'm starting to get excited! Never mind that it's freezing cold inside my house today and I just can't seem to get warm. I need to call and ask them to turn up the heat.

My thoughts are rambling all over the place; I'm so distracted, even though I really do need to be working. Maybe I need to just flow with this feeling rather than fight it—just lie under the covers and let my thoughts roam. Oh, but I'm feeling guilty about the work. I really need to get back to it. But why do I feel so darned unsettled today?


  1. Some days we are just OFF in every way. We need to learn to accept that, I guess.
    I am a bit thrilled to hear about your trip out to San Francisco with your daughter. Y'all are going to have a wonderful time!

    1. Mary, I am soooo looking forward to that trip!

  2. OMG but look at all these wonderful opportunities! San Francisco is my FAVORITE place (that I've been to) in the U.S. I am soooo jealous! Have fun and enjoy the sun!