Our son has been a camper and now a counselor at this camp for the past decade, and he is kind of a rock star there. People come up to us and tell us how much they appreciate him. Usually they say things like, "I love that kid." We hear it every year, always grateful that they bother to say it. Now we're hearing it about his sister as well. She's fairly new to the camp, having spent only one year as a camper there (she used to go to farm camp instead). She told us she enjoyed being on staff and felt more a part of things as a counselor assistant than she did as a camper. That was probably because her fellow campers had been coming there together for many years, and she felt a bit outside. But having worked last year and this, she's finally racked up enough time to feel like the place is truly hers as well. It certainly seemed to be hers. On the way to her tent, we were ran into two of her bunkmates, a couple of young men who gave us firm handshakes and made good eye contact, and several of the kids in her unit who she cheerfully introduced. "These are my girls," she said as they crowded round her. And to the girls, "These are my mom and dad."
At the tents, our daughter expertly folded back the flaps to reveal four very neat bunks. "You cleaned up for us?" we asked, and she admitted it wasn't just for us. "We knew parents would be walking through the unit and we didn't want them to think the people caring for their kids were such a mess." After, we strolled the long way back to the lake, a steeply descending scenic path I had never been down before. She pointed out landmarks, and told us about her girls. She is assigned to the 10-11 year-olds and she is enjoying them, even the difficult ones and especially the scrappy ones. As she spoke, I realized she had everything a 17-year-old could want. Close friends, children who don't hesitate to wrap their arms around her, cute counselor boys who step up to meet the parents, no homework, activities round the clock, dances every Friday night, and the most idyllic natural setting anywhere. No wonder she wants to spend as much of her summer as she can in this place.
Back on the beach, my son had finished his lifeguarding stint, and we all sat around catching up. It was a perfect day, just warm enough with not a trace of humidity. Our son told us he found himself doing some of things his dad used to do, like putting his hand on top of a kid's head and (gently) steering him where he wanted him to go. "Did it ever bother you?" I asked him. "No," he said, "I liked when he did that, otherwise I wouldn't do it with my kids."
Of course our son's iPhone was ever in his hand, and he was periodically texting his girlfriend, who was off campus for the day since she works in day camp and the day camp counselors had the day off. Apparently, things are going well there. Then one of my daughter's friends challenged my son to a game of mancala, and several of the counselors sat around bantering cheerfully and watching them play, until one joked that mancala would never be a spectator sport
Later, the six of us trooped to car and drove into town for lunch and for a stop at Walmart so that the kids could resupply. I think the Walmart resupply stop is the real purpose of parent visiting day, as we ran into campers and their parents in every aisle. One mother of a boy in my son's unit came up to my son and told him that her 11-year-old, who had been coming to camp for four years by then, told her that my son was the best counselor he had ever had. My son had earlier described this kid as an "all star," talking about how helpful he was with another kid who was homesick. I wanted to tell the boy's mother what my son had said that about her child, but I thought back to when my own child was a camper, and I was seeking feedback from the counselors, and I realized that my intrusion would have been weird and would even have undermined my son. Besides, my son told the mother how great her son was. "Neatest one in the tent," he said at one point. The mother said, "Well, that is not an accident! I worked on that!" And my son laughed and said, "Well then I'm sending all the others to live with you for a while!" He was so easy and comfortable in the exchange. It was one of those moments when you get to stand aside and watch who your children are in the world. And seeing them that way, you sigh deeply with gratitude.
And then you exhale.
I remember doing that with my little brother, putting my hand on his head to steer him. Lovely, glad you had such a great day.ReplyDelete
So wonderful -- I loved all the details and your overarching love and warmth towards your beautiful family.ReplyDelete
I just enjoyed this all to pieces. Your kids ARE rock stars. Gorgeous and good.ReplyDelete
I know you will rest easier now, having seen them in such a good place in every way.
Well, you did it! You done raised some great kids. So when is your Parenting Book coming out?ReplyDelete
Great photos, great story.
Your Friend, m.
totally love this piece, angella. i have been in the same 'place' as you...my son was a counselor, too, first year in college, and i remember how wonderful it was to watch him interact with 'his' campers. the casual hugs. the grateful parents. your documentation sis just beautiful; aside from the pix of your family, i love the one of the 3 young girls...beautiful!ReplyDelete
Deirdre, thank you, sweet friend.ReplyDelete
Elizabeth, they hold our hearts in their hands, don't they? love to you.
Ms. Moon, I am resting easier, thank you. God, it feels good to BREATHE.
Mark, you're kidding right? I'm praying like the dickens all the time that things keep going along a good path. in some ways it's harder when you have to leave it to them to run their lives themselves. don't we parents always think we know best? imagine knowing best and knowing you have to just shut up and let them figure it out. No parenting books here, buddy. Just trial and error, many of both! Love you.
susan t, i could have done a whole post on the kids, such shining faces. everyone seemed so happy. thank you for being here this morning, friend. xo.
Excellent photos. I'm glad that your children are so enjoying the summer. They are in such a wonderful place to get the most of it :)ReplyDelete
What Mark says. Really. Because sure, not everything is perfect, probably far from it. But you are so honest and real and humble yet proud. Please please you should write a book, an essay, anything. Maybe you, Mark and Deb (and others) can get something together. You three have become my go-to in turns of what I aspire to be like as a parent. Thanks.ReplyDelete
Great post, fabulous pics! I know that knot in the stomach even though it is much larger for us than it is for them. Just one more thing to surrender.....Great Jobe Mom!ReplyDelete
Angella, you make me proud. Proud to be a woman, proud to be sensitive and honest enough to admit the truth, and very proud to be a mother first and foremost. Your children are lovely and that did not happen by accident. I understand the blood, sweat and tears that go into raising a good human being. It is no simple task!ReplyDelete
Basque in the wonderful remarks, the proud moments and the times when you are able to just breathe and observe. I especially adore the photo of your husband with your daughter. There is nothing quite like that relationship, is there:)
So much love and big hugs,
Oh Angella. I so want to be you when I grow up. I so do. Because this kind of success? What it is ALL ABOUT.ReplyDelete
I am bursting with pride for you. This is what happens when kids grow up surrounded in that kind of love. You, my sister, are the real deal.
Loved that post so much that I think I'm about to read it again. . . .ReplyDelete
A wonderful experience for your son and the whole family. You and hubby have done good, Angella! It's great to see you all enjoying each other's company so much.ReplyDelete
It is so heart-warming to read this after your anguish. We have to believe our children will work things out, even when the road seems very bumpy. (that is mine I'm thinking of, not yours) Yours seem to have smoothed things out wonderfully well.ReplyDelete
Olga, it truly is beautiful there. The photos don't do it justice.ReplyDelete
Miss A, thanks for the vote of confidence, but i think we're all out here making it up as we go. you will too, but you will be guided by your loving intentions, cultivated awareness and good heart. you'll be wonderful.
Kathleen, that knot is truly more present for us. They are in the flow of their lives at all times. We were that way, too, when we were their age!
Debra, your support means so much to me. A friend asked whether our daughter was a daddy's girl or mama's girl, and i thought for a moment and said, "She has both of us around her little finger." And her brother too!
Grady doc, your boys are growing up steeped in love, it is so clear. Their faces beam with it!
Deborah, it was indeed a wonderful day. But the job isn't done ever! This is what I am learning. It just changes. Someone told me that as our kids grow we lose our job as managers and have to get them to hire us back as consultants.
Isabel, i think you read all the posts before i took them down, so you understand how much this day meant. it was a healing, corrective experience. love to you.
I love this. You are blessed with the most beautiful family ever, do you know that?ReplyDelete
what else is there to say?ReplyDelete
Read this again and again.