Monday, November 14, 2016

"When they buried us, they did not know that we were seeds"

This election. Everything is just so surreal. I feel numb one minute, hopeful the next, despairing the next, outraged after that. And then I just go back to numb. My frame of mind changes moment to moment, and I'm noticing that as soon as I declare something, I'm no longer sure I believe it, or if it was ever true. So perhaps I need to just be silent now. Because I don't know what to think on the other side of an election outcome so devastating I couldn't imagine it even as it was happening. Are we fucked? Maybe. Will it get worse from here? Already has. Is there hope? Always.

Are you reading those Joe Biden memes? They're everywhere. I think they've struck a chord because they're rooted in the love and bro-loyalty that flourished between Biden and Obama, two men from different generations and racial backgrounds, who proved that sturdy bridges are possible when there is an atmosphere of basic human decency. Along with the messages on post-it notes being left by the thousands on subway walls in New York City, it's a form of therapy, much like that exuberant photo of my girl reroutes my disordered brain. These are troubled times. We find comfort where we can.




11 comments:

  1. Beautiful pics.

    You do what you need to do to make it through, we'll be here for ya regardless <3

    I had not seen the memes and enjoyed those, thanks for link!

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  2. I love you. My words are stoppered up for the moment too. xoxox

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  3. I am usually quiet but I am keeping unusually quiet because I can't stand feeling such despair. Trump's appointments are a WHOLE other knife. So I go inward and try and find a part of myself that can focus on getting by. Blogs like yours help me .

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  4. Yes indeed...As the 5 stages of grieving continues!

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  5. Who the beep knows.....don't feel like I know anything anymore. Those memes did make me laugh for a moment, thank you. This marks the 10th day since I last watched the news. I just can't. Sending love, wish I could send hope.
    Xoxo
    Barbara

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  6. I'm right there with you. I can't discuss what the guy in the mall said as he came toward me, though I know he wasn't right in the head, who is when they are talking crap?

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  7. It seems fairly evident that the election results were traumatic at different levels for different people. From where I am, it is relatively easy to try to be analytical, because he wasn't elected in my country, because I am straight, white, with a white family, with access to free healthcare, laws that help ensure basic rights. For an American, especially any non-white American, there is a real and immediate potential impact in terms of everyday living, health, and safety. No wonder you are traumatized. Please just know that those of us who are lucky enough to feel the trauma less severely are still on your side and still concerned and looking to do what we can to make a bad situation better. We don't necessarily know what that is, so please talk to us if you see that we don't understand what you're going through and how to help. Do what you need to do, as HBF said, and that includes writing if writing helps. Hugs, dear friend.

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  8. And that picture of your daughter is just pure joy to gaze upon.

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  9. Those memes are my son Henry's favorite. I'm grateful for them because it pulls him out of his cynicism.

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  10. Dave loves those memes, too! I hadn't heard about the post-it note phenomenon. Interesting! I'm glad people are finding ways to express their outrage. I am in a numb phase too.

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  11. The post it' notes! "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls..."

    Does your girl ever not glow? Her inner beauty shines!

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