Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Twilight on 85th Street


Hey there. I couldn't stay away. Maybe I'll just post pictures here for a while. Even though I already have things I want to tell you. I suppose if they matter enough, they'll keep. In the meantime, I will try to stay still enough so I can figure out why I'm feeling so vulnerable. Sometimes our feelings get hurt for no good reason, and we have to find the grown up inside us, and speak from that place, live from that place, no matter how insistent the child voice might be.


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    1. Kristin, funny thing. I didn't realize i had hit publish, and thank you.

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  2. I am so happy to see this post. Because I felt myself already missing you. You are one of my mentors so I need to read your words. Even if they come in smaller bites. They are so welcomed and I hope there are things we can say and do that give you safe space even when you feel vulnerable.

    Hugs to you and yours.

    Kimberly

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    1. Kimberly, thank you! You are definitely a safe space for me and I am grateful for it.

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  3. Keep hitting publish. :)

    I feel so fragile right now, so vulnerable. There's so much violence all around me here and I'm just so worn down by it. From the six cop cars outside my house last night to 5 murders in 48 hours to the attack on me last month to a man who boarded a school bus with a gun to threaten the children to a man raping children to ... I just, I'm so overwhelmed. I just want to cry all the time. I need to figure something else out, though. Something better than tears - or something after the tears.

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    1. Nola darling, I know...I know. It's a tough time. It might help to talk to someone. You're dealing with a lot. A lot. Hugs, friend. Hang in there and cry all you want. I find it helps.

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  4. Oh, what a delightful surprise to find your entry today. It felt like running into an old friend. I'm usually just a reader, not a commenter, but I just had to say thank you. 24 hours and you were already missed.

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    1. Jan, welcome! I'm so glad you said hi!

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  5. Welcome home!

    (And don't be too hard on that child inside of you. She deserves as much attention and coddling and love as any child outside of you does ;-)

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    1. Glenn, I appreciate your talking to that child. She needs it a bit. :)

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  6. I'm glad you're still posting!! I haven't been able to, in a long time, but today I did. And as a treat for doing so, I always spend some time reading my favorite blogs. Yours being the very first one I head for!! I wish you and your beautiful family a blessed holiday season. May all your dreams come true. Always.
    Sending love, my friend. ~

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    1. Gabriele, always so nice to see you! Sending you love too.

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  7. Honey. You are right. That child voice (or as Yoko Ono said, the faint, faint sound of the childhood bell, ringing in my soul) sure can be persistent.
    What a gorgeous picture.

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    1. Ms Moon, i took this picture after you posted your photo of that sliver of a moon. i went outside the next evening and there it was, and i swear the thought i had was, "That's Ms. Moon's moon," and for that reason it asked that I make a picture. So this moon is actually for you! I love the idea that we're looking at and sharing the same moon. it made me feel connected to you. hugs.

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  8. Good to hear your voice. Missed you too.

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    1. Andrea, thank you. I'm glad you come by here. :)

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  9. Love your photos and your words. Merry Christmas season, my friend :)

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    1. ellen, my dear bloggy friend, merry christmas to you too! xo

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  10. That's a beautiful photo. And I already miss your words.

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    1. elizabeth, i am happy to hear that because try as i might i can't shut up. i think writing what i'm thinking about might be a necessary act for me. i am glad you're here. always always.

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  11. Angella, I hope you don't stop entirely, but I completely understand the need for a break. Meanwhile, I love the photo, as always!

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    1. Steve, i will take mini breaks over the season, i think. but somehow after a few days i find myself back here, missing you all and wanting to sit around our virtual kitchen table again.

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  12. And today, dear Angella, (even though this was a few days ago) you have spoken my truth. Thank you. xo

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